Yeah. So.November 24, 2012 at 2:15 pm | Posted in NaBloPoMo, Pregnancy Loss | 4 Comments
(Warning: Might be TMI. Feel free to click away.)
I am STILL BLEEDING.
Five and a half weeks after my D&E, I am still bleeding.
I mentioned it to my RE at my follow up, during the exam, when she mentioned that I should expect AF within 4-6 weeks of the procedure. I asked, Does it count if I never stopped bleeding after the procedure?
She suggested that I go in for an ultrasound the following week, because, in her words, bleeding for this long is unusual. And an ultrasound will determine if I’ve retained some products of conception.
I have no pain, nor am I bleeding a lot – it maybe fills a thick pantyliner on most days. But it’s always there.
They couldn’t see me last week, with the Thanksgiving holiday and all. So they scheduled me for Wednesday 11/28 – a full 6 weeks after the procedure. At that point, a week and a half ago, I thought it might be tapering off, and my RE told me that I could cancel if the bleeding stopped.
Yeah. It hasn’t stopped.
I wish I could adequately explain just how discouraging it is to see blood all the time. How every morning when there ISN’T blood, I think: hey, maybe it’s gone. And then when I’m proven wrong, I am struck with how fucking unfair this all is.
I SHOULD be telling people we’re pregnant. Instead, I’m still. FUCKING. BLEEDING.
And with every spot of blood, I’m reminded at how much my body sucks.
This has been the neverending cycle.
I want off.