GOOOOOOAAAAALLLLLLLLL!!

January 28, 2010 at 11:17 am | Posted in And I ran (I ran so far away), milestones, My life | 22 Comments

Two words:

GOAL WEIGHT.

As of this morning, I am 1/2 a pound UNDER my goal weight.

Which means this.

I have lost 20lbs from January of last year – and 15lbs since November.

And it’s funny. I have a hard time REMEMBERING that I’ve lost that much weight. Because every time I get on the scale, I expect to see a number 10lbs heavier than I am right now. When I end up at the gym because I can’t run outside, I actually do a double take in the mirrors because I don’t actually recognize myself.

And whenever I go shopping, I still estimate myself as two sizes bigger than I am.

So clearly the change in how I view myself is slower in coming than it took me to lose the weight in the first place.

But I feel great. Like I’ve taken back my body. I’ve gotten rid of the infertility weight. The pregnancy weight. The baby weight.

All of that baggage? GONE. And I’m left with… well… ME.

This is the best I’ve felt about myself in years.