It’s over.

November 12, 2010 at 5:33 pm | Posted in FET #5: Last Chance Waltz, Pregnancy | 58 Comments

I finally got a call from my clinic.

Beta declined to 386 today.

It’s over.



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  1. Oh, f*ck! I was so hoping this would work. I’m sorry.

  2. Grab a bottle of Fuck-It-All tonight and hit the pavement hard tomorrow.


  3. I am so sorry.

  4. ‘I’m sorry’ seems completely inadequate right now. But I’m really f*cking sorry.

  5. Crap. Serenity, I’m so sorry … and wish I could offer something more than those words. Here with you.

  6. I’m so sorry. There are no words.

  7. That so fucking sucks. I am so sorry, K. I really wish there was more to say. Life is so unfair. I like Heather’s advice about grabbing some Fuck-It-All.

  8. I wish there were better words than “I’m so sorry” and “This sucks” interspersed with a whole lot of expletives.

    Fuck. This just sucks so much. I’m so so so sorry, hun. Have a really big glass of wine, or four, eat some runny cheese and go for a HUGE hard run tomorrow.


  9. Aw sweetie. I’m so sorry to hear this.

  10. I was so hoping to see something else here today. I can’t say how sorry I am.

    Thinking of you and your family.

  11. I am so so so sorry.

  12. I am so, so sorry. I know just how much it hurts when you allow yourself to have hope and believe in the possibility. I am sending love your way. Many hugs.

  13. Oh crap. So sorry 😦

  14. Damn. I am so sorry.

  15. Shit. I’m so sorry. 😦

  16. Sorry. That totally sucks.

  17. Oh No! I was so hoping it would be different. I am sorry 😦 Sending you a hug.

  18. Sucks… Here’s to tomorrow….

    Leslie B.

  19. Serenity, I am deeply deeply sorry for your loss. I was really hoping with you, for you.

    Love to you. Eden xo

  20. i’m so sorry. 😦

  21. Fuck. I’m sorry.

  22. I’m with everybody else. Words fail. That is awful, and I’m so sorry.

  23. That’s awful. I’m so sorry and am thinking of you all.

  24. Im so very sorry, Serenity.

  25. Oh fuck. I’m so, so sorry.

  26. I’m so, so sorry Serenity.

  27. Damn it. I’m so sorry Serenity.

  28. my heart is breaking for you.

    much love.

  29. I am so, so sorry.
    My best thoughts are with you!

  30. I’m so sorry. It’s an awful feeling.

  31. Oh, Serenity. My heart is hurting for you right now. I hope the weekend brings a start to the healing. Know that we are all thinking of you.

  32. Crap. I’m so, so sorry, Serenity.

  33. So sorry…

  34. Even though you are not a stranger to the pain of struggling to have a baby, I know that this loss is devastating on many levels. You know that there are many of us out here thinking of you. I know that you know all of this already, but just in case…

    You are not a failure. This is not your fault. You did everything right. It isn’t fair. You don’t have to decide anything now. You can take time to grieve. You are not alone.

  35. Ugh, fuck, shit! Fucked up, is what it is, and I am so sorry.

  36. I’m really and truly sorry.

  37. Just really, really sorry.

  38. I’m so sorry – I was hoping for better news. Take care of yourself.

  39. OH SHIT! NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!!! “I’m sorry” doesn’t even begin to describe my sorry-ness.

  40. Shit shit shit. I will never understand why this has to happen to anyone, let alone GOOD people.

    I think a massage or something really nice for yourself is in order. Doesn’t fix things, but it helps with the goal of taking care of yourself, which should be your biggest priority.

  41. Crap. Crap. I’m so sorry.

    Take care of yourself.


  42. This familiar feeling came rushing back as I read your post, the “it’s over” feeling, indeed. I always think I forgot the pain, or that I have moved on, but my heart just sinks down and I can almost taste it. It just sucks so so so much. I am sorry, I know how much it hurts and it just sucks and it is unfair and it sucks.

  43. I am so sorry. HUGS

  44. Oh, Serenity…how I wish I was back in your fair city. I don’t know what we would do, but I’m sure at some point it would involve a bakery, some mochas (possibly spiked), and hand-holding and hugs.

    I’m so sorry, my dear friend.

  45. Oh Serenity. I wish it wasn’t over. I’m so sorry.

  46. I’m so sorry. Consider this a virtual hug (whenever you need it).

  47. As everyone else has already said, I’m sorry just seems so inadequate to convey the sense of sadness I feel for you. This sucks. Sucks, sucks, sucks. Sending you lots of hugs.

  48. So, so sorry. Completely unfair.

  49. Ugh. My stomach just rolled when I saw the title. Really sorry to hear this.

  50. Fuck.

  51. there’s not a curse word strong enough to express how I feel. I am so terrribly horribly awfully disgutingly sorry I feel like that doesn’t even sum it up.

  52. I’m so incredibly sorry. Sending lots of love and hugs.

  53. Serenity I’ve been through this three times and still can’t think of anything to say that would be helpful. I am just so sorry that you have to go through this.

  54. I’m sorry. 😦

  55. Gutted. I am so very sorry.

  56. Fuck. I am so sorry, Serenity. xxx

  57. I was nervous to log on. My stomach actually flipped clicking on to your blog title. And, well, there it was. Then I just felt sad. I’m so disappointed for you.

  58. Oh my dear, I am so very very sorry.

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