Recovery and fertilization and a rant.January 20, 2011 at 3:26 pm | Posted in IVF #4: I'm STILL doing this? | 17 Comments
IVF #1 was five years ago, so I don’t really have much memory of the actual HEALING process.
I know that I could barely walk between retrieval and transfer, and I was pretty sure that transfer would kill me.
And I remember the night of my burst follicle as one of the worst physical pain nights pretty much EVER.
Either I was a wimp, or the recovery this time isn’t nearly as bad.
I woke up yesterday from the retrieval pretty lucid. Initially the pain rated a 2, maybe a 3, but as I was sitting there, it started to climb up into the “Ow Ow Ow OW OW!” territory.
The nurse added something to my IV, and I felt better immediately.
They prescribed vicodin, which I did take twice, yesterday. Both times I took it yesterday?
It made me nearly puke.
So today I’m on tylenol and walking REALLY slowly. Peeing hurts (from the inside – OW!). Walking hurts, too, but not as much as it hurt before retrieval.
Thus far, recovery is going okay. I’m sore, I’m keeping an eye on potential hyperstimulation symptoms, but otherwise, I’m back to the usual routine.
And after not hearing from my clinic all morning, I took the bull by the horns and called to find out how damn many of those eggs fertilized.
Which is nearly a 70% fertilization rate.
I know that fertilization rate doesn’t neccessarily correlate to, you know, good QUALITY embryos.
But right now we have 19 embryos.
Here’s where I’m going to lose some of you, I know it.
Good fucking grief.
I didn’t WANT that many. I just wanted 3, maybe 4 good blastocysts.
Honestly? This was the BIGGEST reason I didn’t want to do IVF again in the first place.
It is such a WASTE, creating all this life when we really only want ONE more kid.
And I KNOW I shouldn’t be upset with this result. I know that there are SO many women who WISH that they had this problem. I KNOW it’s a “good” problem to have.
It’s just so… well… wasteful.
But yeah. We have 19, and that means it’s likely we’ll make it to a five day transfer.
And I’m going to ignore the fact that, if this DOES work, we’ll have to discard* a number of embryos which might be in the double digits.
One step at a time, I guess.
*And I say discard because we’ve had this discussion before. Embryo donation is not something we’re comfortable with. I would be okay with donating our embryos for scientific research, but from the little I’ve read about it, it’s nearly impossible to coordinate through our clinic. Again, this was one of my big hang ups on doing another IVF cycle and I guess I’m sort of angry at myself that I went ahead with it without really getting comfortable with the possibility that this might happen.