There’s Always Information That’s Missing.February 10, 2011 at 10:06 pm | Posted in doctor, FET #6: deja vu (again) | 6 Comments
I spoke with O’s teacher, my favorite, tonight directly and asked her what she thought would be the best way to approach potty training.
And she told me that O had been going on the potty every afternoon willingly, until some older kids had spotted that he was still in diapers, and made fun of him for it.
She said that though she nipped it in the bud, O got angry with the friends that pointed it out, and since then has refused to sit on the potty. And fights diaper changes.
My poor kiddo. Seems like he’s EMBARRASSED. 😦
So we’ll try pull ups for now in the afternoons at school to make him feel more like a big kid. And drop it for a little while if he still seems resistant to the idea after a weekend or two at home in underwear.
We had our follow up appointment with Dr. HIT today.
It’s funny – my doctor is unfailingly positive. Even at the worst when we were trying with O, he’d boom, let’s get you PREGNANT!
Today, I think he saw that we are tired and battle weary. And though he was positive, he was a lot more muted.
We have 8 embryos frozen in 4 straws.
The first straw, according to Dr. HIT, he feels very comfortable with. Those two embryos are graded 4AB and 3BB.
The others? Well, in his words, they’re fair quality. Maybe it’s my age, or the protocol. But he did say that the others might make for implantation issues.
And he thought, cumulatively, our chances of getting pregnant with single embryo transfers was very good.
It just might take you a longer amount of time, he said.
Our options are pretty open. A fresh cycle with assisted hatching again would be covered under our insurance, since it replicates the cycle that netted us the live birth.
We briefly discussed PGD, but not only is it not covered by insurance, it would also require another aggressive stim cycle, and I am NOT willing to do that ever again.
But when I asked him flat out what he thought we should do, he suggested a frozen cycle.
With a transfer of both blasts.
I knew that wouldn’t fly with J, who had been sitting there in the office with me, silently. When Dr. HIT turned to him and asked his opinion, J as much said so.
He’s not okay with more than one. Never has been, actually – even with three day embryos. Which I thought was ridiculous, so I fought him on it for IVF #3 when we actually got pregnant with O.
But we know more now. My uterus is unreliable. And of course the first time we transfer two blasts it’d just be my LUCK that we’d get pregnant with twins. And then we’d have to consider selective reduction and/or a high risk pregnancy.
Not to mention the fact that I’m not sure how we’d, you know, AFFORD three kids.
But you know, I can see all sides. I’m not sure it’s a responsible decision to transfer more than one. But I would LIKE to maximize my chances of getting pregnant, too.
(Not to mention? My sister got a negative beta today. After transferring two GORGEOUS blasts. Yeah. Not pregnant, and I’m completely gutted for her.)
I am TIRED of treatments. If I’m being honest I was done with them three years ago when we got pregnant with O.
I really have one, maybe two cycles left in me before I need to walk away. And I’d really like to walk away because of the best reason possible – a pregnancy where we end up with a real live baby at the end.
Of course Dr HIT couldn’t promise that.
So we left with a plan of doing a FET and thawing the straw with our two best blasts. And on the day of transfer – which we will plan for when he’s on call that day – we’ll decide how many to transfer.
And on our way home, I told J it was his responsibility to decide how many we transfer. Because I can’t THINK about any of this shit any more. I can’t decide, I can’t be responsible.
I can’t DO this any more.
But here we are. Doing our 6th thaw cycle. Our 14th embryo and 9th transfer.
Scheduled for Friday, March 11.
And that’s all I have to say about that.