Tangled.March 23, 2011 at 9:30 am | Posted in Infertility, milestones | 8 Comments
We’ve been talking with O about his big boy bed for ages now, it seems.
Friends of ours gave us a frame and a boxspring, so all we needed was a mattress.
As an aside, did you know that there are places that try to get people to pay $399 for twin mattress? Seriously? I mean, I don’t want to be CHEAP, but four hundred dollars is RIDICULOUS for a THREE YEAR OLD.
I’m just saying.
Initially, we ended up getting one from a fly-by-night operation. It never really felt right, and after three weeks when they kept telling us that they “still didn’t have it from the warehouse,” we told them to go screw.
So then we went to a reputable place instead and got a mattress where we knew it wasn’t coming off the back of a truck somewhere.
O has been pretty darn excited about his big boy bed. So even though I was going to be out last night, I told him that he should ask his Daddy to put it together for him.
Which J did.
He went to sleep just fine in it, according to my husband.
And when I got home, I tiptoed into his room to check on him.
Now. In general, I haven’t minded saying goodbye to Baby O. With every milestone, I’ve really looked at it as welcoming the big kid into our house. I’ve relished how much easier it’s gotten, how we need less STUFF whenever we travel, how independent O is getting, how excited I am to be able to DO things with him.
But last night, when I stood in his room, looking at his impossibly small form sacked out in this new bed, I had a flash of the future.
Of creeping into his room and seeing my impossibly BIG kid sleeping as a teenager.
My heart nearly seized up with emotion.
Maybe it’s because we’re not certain now if we’ll have another baby, because we’re looking down the barrel at the End of Trying. Maybe it’s because I’m realizing that we got really damn lucky the first time. Maybe it’s because I’m hormonal from AF. Maybe it’s a product of six months of failed treatments.
But last night, I cried bittersweet tears.
It’s going by so fast.