Acknowledge.April 19, 2011 at 7:47 am | Posted in IVF #5: This is IT. | 12 Comments
My Zen started ebbing away the moment my nurse told me to increase my FSH to 225iu.
Logically, there’s no issue. My follicles were small. My doctor wants to get me moving. Et cetera, yada, blah blah.
It’s just different from what we did with our successful cycle.
And I suppose I sort of hoped I’d be EXACTLY tracking to that cycle.
And since I’m not, it’s allowing the Doubt to creep in.
I am trying not to obsess. Because it is what it is. It’s four years later; it would be silly for me to expect that everything would be the same as before.
So. Expectations adjusted. I am now just hoping to make it to retrieval. (Because I REALLY don’t want to have a cancelled cycle. Not at ALL.)
I do have to acknowledge this, too.
I really, really, REALLY want this to work.