La-La-LIMBO!October 16, 2012 at 4:16 pm | Posted in Heartbreak, Moving On., Mythical #2, Pregnancy | 36 Comments
(aka: How Low Can You Go?)
Today’s scan showed an embryo measuring exactly where it needed to be. It was bigger. I watched it and saw the blip of its beating heart. For a second, I was relieved. Still there. Still beating away.
The heart rate, measured three or four times?
Slower than last week, and much slower than the 120 it needs to be for the gestation.
Still no yolk sac, either.
I have to hand it to the radiologist, who gave it to me straight. The embryo is in there. It’s measuring where it needs to be. But the heart rate is much slower than it needs to be, and slower than last week. Honestly, if pressed, I’d say this seems to be petering out.
And the report was even better: Irregular shaped gestational sac. Heart rate slow (74). No yolk sac visualized.
My doctor seemed confused by the news. Apparently it’s unusual to have an embryo measuring spot on for gestation AND a slow heart rate – usually I guess the development stops first?
At any rate, she told me there wasn’t much that we could do but wait it out.
So lucky me, I get to wait a whole WEEK until the next scan. And, at confirmation of this embryo’s likely demise next week, decide whether to opt for a D&C or miscarry naturally.
I get so fucking sick from anesthesia that I think I’d opt to miscarry.
In the meantime, I wait.
But it’s looking like Mythical #2 will stay mythical.